Hey guys :) I’m writing this fast because I have to go soon lol, but hi. As you can see I put up a new layout and yes I know I haven’t made an entry in awhile. I was taking a little break because even though I know not a lot of people visit this anymore..I still want to do it for myself.

I have several things I want to talk about, first is I got 4 new books yesterday. :) My dad found this really nice bookstore that sells books for half the price of what you’d find at like barnes and noble and stuff. Half of the books I found were only like $4. That’s such a bargain compared to some bookstores. I got these books:
-Dear John by Nicolas Sparks
-Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson
-Forever… by Judy Blume
-Sharing Sam by Katherine Applegate

I’m alllllmost finished with the Left Behind series, I’m trying to get the book I’m on now, and finish the next two in the next 2 weeks… I’ve been reading the series for almost a year (in june) and I love these books, but I’m really itching to read something else. I’ve been wanting to read Dear John for awhile now, but for one I didn’t have any money to buy it and I didn’t want to get distracted from my other books.

-Dear John is that new movie out with Channing Tatum and Amanda Seyfried. I haven’t seen the movie yet but I’m hoping to once I get finished with the book. I’m hoping I get done before they take it out lol, but if I don’t I’ll watch it on dvd. :)

-Speak is also a movie, with Kristen Stewart. That is one of my favorite movies with her in it. I told my mom what the book was about and she was like “you’re reading a book like that…?” It’s kind of hard to explain, but it’s a very good story.

-Forever… I’m not quite sure what it’s about.. but I loved Judy Blume as a kid in elementary so since I’m older now I thought I’d read one of her young adult books.

-Sharing Sam is a story about girls named Alison and Isabell, who are best friends. Alison really likes this guy named Sam, she also finds out that Isabell really likes him too.. Alison finds out Isabell is dying, so she wants to make her feel special, I’m guessing what’s gonna happen is that she’s going to let her have Sam…but, that’s just me. ;)

So yes I plan to be busy reading for awhile. :)

I also get to a point where I forget what else I was going to talk about UGH. Whatever, I may edit this. Bye bye :)

So recently I’ve noticed a lot of people judging others.. my friends, other people I go to school with, and myself.. mainly my friends.. I have this friend in my chorus class and she always gets picked on because she doesn’t “sing” I know very well that she does, because i freaking sit right next to her.. And you know, that same friend criticized my other friend saying the skirt she wore was “skanky” because it was somewhat short. Not EVEN the shortest of skirts that I’ve seen.. it’s like.. you just got mad at people judging you for something, and then you go around do it to someone else. It really irritates the crap out of me.. Then, I am so tired of like..when we get a new student at school, I hear comments from the guys like “I wonder if she’ll be hot!” and then they see them they’re like “ok ew…” That happened earlier this year and I really just wanted to punch them in the jaw.. I don’t mean all guys.. but guys are such PIGS. And they’re so rude..

Also, I am tired of people judging me.. I am tired of people taking one look at me and think I have an eating disorder.. a couple years ago some people thought I was anorexic because I’m so small.. can you believe that? Oh, but if someone who is “popular” and they’re as small as I am, that has nothing to do with it. They’re just small.. WHAT ABOUT ME? I don’t get considered in this? I have never once had an eating disorder nor would I want to.. I eat like a freaking pig. However recently my dad has noticed me go through a “growth-spurt” if that’s even what it is. But that’s beside the point.. I am tired of people judging me.. recently chorus class has been making me angry.. the people, the teacher and just everything about it right now. It’s an “advanced chorus” and we’re not singing advanced music.. we’re singing music 6^th graders could probably sing.. and then. The teacher. Ok so I’m gonna make this example again, say someone who is “popular” is helping someone, the teacher goes “oh, ok that’s fine.” However, if it’s me, she points me and the person I’m helping out to the entire class… I was freaking helping my friend with something and the teacher goes “Sash and Kendra… we’re singing right now. You need to be singing.” My face got all hot and I almost cried.. I know I’m sensitive.. but if someone else did that they wouldn’t have gotten in trouble.. and then my so called “friend” pointed it out to me at the end of class, “haha, you got in trouble!” I was like .. I shouldn’t have gotten in trouble.. I was HELPING her. It ticked me off so bad.. and then my friend that I was helping, yesterday she told me this story about how this kid in show choir mentioned me. So they were trying to figure out a schedule for show choir for next year, and they said they could do fridays in class, and the people that weren’t in show choir could use it as a second study hall.. and this kid was like “I know Kendra wouldn’t care if we sang or not” (something along those lines, I can’t remember how he said it.) It’s like .. I was in choir last year, I know what it’s like to be in a non advanced chorus.. I came to advanced for a REASON. Some freshmen isn’t just going to assume things just because I don’t sing very loud….

Anyway.. I’m done complaining.. for now.. I may not make an entry for a few weeks.. I need a break from my site, and maybe a short (open) hiatus will make me feel better.

So my question, why do we judge people? Based on how they look, act anything like that..

First I just wanna mention, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! I love Valentines Day, and I hope you all are having a good day. :)

Second, I got my hair dyed :D I was looking for something a little darker, because I had blond highlights and my hair grew out, and it started to look weird.. so I dyed it this reddish-dark brown. And I’m pretty happy with it. :) I always find myself never having anything to talk about, but whenever I’m not really thinking about making an entry.. I know what I want to talk about. I really dislike that situation.

GUESS WHAT. I got a freaking car O_O It’s so small it’s hilarious, the horn is the funniest part.. it sounds like a little clown car… XD I love it :) it was originally for my brother, but since its so small, my brother decided to keep his car and the little one is now mine. :D obviously it’s not REALLY mine, it’s under my dad’s name.. but it’s mine to drive. :)

Gosh… I don’t have anything else to say :(

I forgot to mention this XD
I didn’t have my computer for like a week O_o I can’t remember if I mentioned it in another entry, but I was planning on getting Windows 7 for my computer, because vista is an epic fail. So I my dad helped me pay half for it and had other people from Best Buy, known as the Geek Squad, install it for us. Because of technical issues and stuff lol. So at first all they were going to do was install it and it’d be done. Nothing would be gone and I could go back to using it as I used to. Well, my dad got a call on probably Thursday or Friday saying they had to do a clean install on it… which means everything would be gone. In a way I was happy for this, in another I was extremely sad.. XD yes I had backed stuff up.. but there was so much other stuff I hadn’t thought to back up at all, and now it’s gone forever :( however, since I don’t really remember what they were, I guess I’m not going to miss them too much.

My opinion on Windows 7? Well.. let me put it this way.. IT’S SO FREAKING AMAZING AND FAST, AND LIKE 100x BETTER THAN VISTA. If you’ve ever used vista, or have had a vista computer.. you know where I’m coming from on this… Windows 7 is so sleek and nice, yes it still looks like vista, but it runs like an XP computer would. I’m still getting used to everything, because it is pretty different, but overall, I really like it. :)

Holy friendlies. Like the new layout? I was very inspired to make this from this song. It’s a very good song and it’s so pretty :) I did take the picture also :)

Hm, what is there to talk about.. well if you didn’t read my last entry, I got my braces off. :) I got them off 3 days ago and some people are just now noticing haha. It’s a great feeling to have them off, however the retainer on the back of my teeth is getting on my last nerve… I think it’s starting to give me a sore on my tongue lol, but you don’t need to know that. I never thought it would hurt to brush my teeth though.. I’m so used to metal being there so I brush somewhat hard.. and since the braces are gone.. that’s not a good thing to do lol. And I can actually smile now! I hated my smile with braces… it just didn’t look normal to me.. but now I can’t stop smiling in pictures. I put up a new profile picture thing on the sidebar <--- and on my bio page. :)

Bethany Dillon
I may have said it before, but I’ll say it again. Beautiful music. Beautiful voice. I swear I every time I listen to her music I feel like I can just fly.. she is so inspirational. She is a Christian singer, but even if you’re not Christian I recommend listening to her.

Speaking of Christianity.. I know this is kind of a touchy subject for some people, that causes a whole bunch of controversy.. But I wanted to ask this; do you think it’s wrong to say “Jesus Christ” in vain? People do it at my school all the time and it really makes me want to scream. My literature teacher doesn’t like it either, and when she tells people to stop it they just get all defensive and think shes forcing religion upon them… I think it’s wrong, it’s disrespectful and if you say it while a Christian is around it may hurt their feelings, which it has to me… So I want to know your thoughts on this, because I know I’m not the only one who dislikes this..

I’m getting confirmed at church. :D I start classes this Sunday and I get (re)baptized on March 21^st. (also my mom’s birthday.. XD) I’m pretty excited about it :)

Hmm… I think that’s it.. :P

I just wanted to make a quick blog entry saying… I’M FREEEEEE! I got my top braces off yesterday! :D It is the weirdest feeling… It did hurt when he took them off… I wasn’t expecting it to be that bad lol. I got a permanent retainer on the back of my teeth, and I have to go in next Monday, Excuse me.. Wednesday :P to get another retainer which I have to wear at night.

It is such a joy to eat, and to brush my teeth <3 My orthodontist said the lower braces would probably only have to stay on a couple months, which makes me even happier. I'm almost completely done with braces. :D

Layout: I will be putting up a new layout in a few days, I’ve just been busy.. any suggestions on what to have it feature? :)

How many of you have liked the same music for years? Not giving hardly anything else a chance? I have. For going on 4 years I’ve loved Miley Cyrus music and all this disney stuff, don’t get me wrong, I love disney (not the tv station.. I can’t stand it anymore) but I’m getting older, you know? Recently I started listening to Pandora Radio on my ipod, and I’ve been introduced to different music. I’ve listened to artists like Train, Relient K, Jack’s Mannequin, Jimmy Eat World, and some others. And I’ve fallen in love with their music. I believe I’d heard of all of them before, but I just.. refused to listen to them. I had my mind set on listening to what I already liked. But you do that enough and you get bored with what you’re listening to. No, I’m not bored with Miley and no I don’t hate her. But I’ve over played her songs and I wish she would come out with a real, good sized album. Instead of just in EP.

But I am in love with Jack’s Mannequin; I was in geometry the other day and I had my school laptop out and I was listening to the song Dark Blue, or… Spinning I think it was, and my friend Rachel looked over at the screen and was like “YOU LIKE JACK’S MANNEQUIN?!” and freaked out.. xD The lyrics have a ton of meaning and even though the vocals aren’t like opera singer amazing, I love them.

So tell me, what’s your favorite artist/song?

I’ve also had more stuff going on, but I’ll save that for an entry in a couple days. :)

Hi world! How are all of you today? D: This is a really random entry, and I’m still wondering what I’m going to talk about.. because.. I’m not that sure yet. Well it’s new years eve! =O Today is the last day of 2009 and we’re moving on to 2010. I’m kind of excited to get this year over with.. it’s been an ok year, but I’m hoping 2010 is much better..

How was everyone’s break? Mine was incredibly boring but..eventful :P I don’t go back until the 5^th so I still have a few more days, but I’m actually excited to go back. I do miss my friends from school. :( I got a call from my friend Rachel today asking if I was going to the lock-in tonight at this youth center here.. but I don’t know if I want to.. because, there are a lot of people who go that mess around and make it.. non fun. And we’re supposed to stay up .. ALL night. from all day today to 7 am tomorrow. And I cannot do that. xD I don’t even want to try.. So I guess I’ll see people on Tuesday at school. :)

OH OH!! I have several bits and pieces of great news. =O

-I’m…getting…my.. top.. BRACES OFF AT MY NEXT APPOINTMENT =DDDDDDD this makes me so happy. You have no idea… We went to my appointment about 3 days ago and he said they would for sure come off next time. But leaves the bottom ones on for a few more months if necessary. I’ve been fairly happy with the top for awhile now, I was going to ask him about that at that appointment, but he answered before I could even ask. I’ll probably take some pictures after :) So, question: Have you had braces and if you’ve gotten them off already, what all DO they do? I know they pop off the brackets and scrape off the glue.. but is that it?

-I got my phone =D Now I can’t even remember when I got it lol, Sunday I think. No.. I did get it Monday. Ok, here’s the story. Sunday we went out to get one from Alltel.. first we went to the mall. We saw that the Alltel store was closed. So we went and ate lunch and then went back to see if it was back open.. it wasn’t. If you haven’t heard yet, Verizon bought Alltel, so they’re merging. So we stopped at a Verizon store in the mall and asked if we wanted to switch to Verizon..would it be possible.. and it wasn’t.. because our side of Alltel hadn’t switched over.. Soo..we were pretty much done today. I was disappointed but it was all good..

So then Monday we went back into the city and went to a Verizon store.. there were NO free phones out..at all. All had a price. So we went to a Sprint store. Sprint is my new best friend. Kidding, but I love them. My dad, mom and I got all free phones and then my brother payed for his own lol. I (along with my mom and dad) got a Sanyo SCP-2700 and my brother got the LG rumor2. I really love my phone, I think it’s amazing and the keyboard, as small as it is, I really like it. I got the blue one rather than the pink, because I’m not THAT big of fan of pink.

I have my phone set up to twitter now, which I’m pretty happy about. Because well.. I am pretty addicted to twitter. And using it from my phone makes me even more addicted to it lol. I can actually use twitter without having wifi on my ipod or if I’m away from my computer. :)

oh! and the secret life of the american teenager is coming back this Monday :D be sure to watch :D
So, I think that’s it.. if I think of anything else.. I’ll edit or make a different entry. :) HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I’m obsessed with Glee. That’s all I have to say…..

No I’m joking. MERRY CHRISTMAS :D I know I said I was worried to make an entry for what I got for Christmas, because I didn’t want to think I was bragging.. and that’s not what I think Christmas is all about. But your comments made me want to :) I really don’t want to sound like I’m bragging though..cuz I’m not. :

My mom’s parents
So we went to their house on the 23^rd and ate out at a restaurant called Misty’s. I’m sorry but food should not be that expensive. I’ll go eat at McDonald’s and be just as happy. I don’t know why we eat there and then listen to my parent’s complain about it being too expensive..here’s an idea. DON’T EAT THERE :D It was nice, but seriously. After we were done we went back to their house and opened presents. From them I got:
-A snuggie lol
-Make up
-$50
-They weren’t at the house, but I got some south pole boots from my cousin.

So that was nice and after that we watched some of a christmas carol and then went home :)

My dad’s mom and step dad
First we went there and we sat around and talked and I painted something with my aunt xD and then after we ate and then we watched a movie, Land of the Lost.. may I say that is the stupidest, most ridiculous, funniest movie I’ve seen xD I got $50 from her and then we sat around some more and talked and I think we went somewhere after that.. I can’t remember :P

At Home
So I woke up at 4 am…ugh. :P I think I was cold or something, but I fell asleep until about 7 and then couldn’t go back to sleep. I saw my brother freaking sitting out in the living room xD [I was sleeping downstairs, cuz my windows in my room kept rattling…and it was cold xD] so then about 30 minutes later my dad comes in and *wakes me up* even though I was still pretty awake. He’s like “Santa came!” I’m like *moans and grunts because I’m really tired and want to sleep* :P So after we all got up and stuff we went out to the living room and opened presents xD I got:
-Make up from my mom, which I absolutely love, because it actually works! The other stuff I had [not what I got for christmas] before didn’t work right… so I was very happy I got something that worked right :P
-Glee volume 1 soundtrack
-Glee volume 2 soundtrack
-Kris Allen CD
-A camera! My old one was 5 megapixels..this one is 12.. :P
-andddd… THE LEFT BEHIND BOOKS =O omg you have no idea how happy I am lol. I was so happy xD My brother was all like “WHOA O_O” cuz there are 12 books. He asked me how I’m gonna read all of them.. I’m like “I’m already on the 9^th book, Russell.”
-Oreos and gum in my stocking :)
-Cross key chain from my mom <3

My mom got a Wii so we played that for a bit before we went to my grandparents and then the drive over there was hectic….we have so much snow here it’s not even funny…

My dad’s dad and step mom
So we went over there and my little cousin was there! Olivia xD She walked out to the living room when we walked in and shes lie O_o like she had no idea who we were. It took her a little bit to get used to us. She was obsessed with my camera lol, she actually took a really good picture of the Christmas tree. I was impressed that a 2 year old can take that good of pictures :P We ate turkey and other food and then opened presents. I got’s
-$50
-A new cross necklace <3 my other one broke :(
-2 shirts (or “blouses” as my grandpa called them to confuse my brother)
-a make up kit thing from my aunt
-perfume from my aunt.

It was a very good Christmas, and no not all about the presents. Just the fact that even though..previously it didn’t exactly feel like it Christmas, like it’d come too fast… I liked spending time with my cousins and stuff. It was really nice :)

ALSO, I wanted to mention something. I’m getting a phone =O On Monday I believe… We have alltel at the moment, (we’ll probably be switching over to Verizon soon though..) so, if any of you have alltel, do you have any suggestions on what phone to get? :)

I’m not going to call this entry Christmas, because I know not everyone celebrates Christmas. But this is going to be pretty short. How many of you DO celebrate Christmas, and what are your traditions?

I have 3 grandparents. Well.. you know what I mean right? My dad has a step mom and step dad so I have 3 grandmas and 3 grandpas. You know? Ok :D Well anyway, usually we go to my dad’s mom’s a few days before Christmas, we hang out with them and say other cousins and stuff.. then usually [not this year because there was a conflict] we go to my mom’s parents’ on Christmas Eve. But this year my pastor at the church I go to asked me to do a reading at the service, and since it probably won’t get over until 6, my mom doesn’t think many restaurants will be open by the time we get into the city. So we have to go a day before Christmas Eve. So Christmas Eve’s Eve. :P And then we have Christmas at home and then go to my dad’s dads’ on Christmas Day.

To me, Christmas isn’t all gifts.. for days I’ve been hearing “what are you getting for Christmas?” or “GET THIS HALF OFF FOR CHRISTMAS!” To me it’s about spending time with family and the birth of baby Jesus.. I know not everyone is religious or celebrates Christmas..that’s fine..but that’s what it means to me..Yes all of the gifts are nice and stuff, and they’re cool to get.. but it’s not all about gifts to me. :) It’s this great, great feeling of joy and happiness this time of the year, and I love it. And it’s a lot stronger this year than it has been for awhile. It doesn’t necessarily mean everything is perfect, but I’m really excited for it this year.

I don’t really want to say what I’m getting right now.. I might save that until like.. a couple days after or something.. if I even decide to make an entry like that.. I feel bad doing that for some reason..it’s like I’m bragging or something lol. If I do, and you read it.. please don’t think I am.. because I’m not. :(

But I put up a new layout, that last one was getting on my last nerve.. but I do want to talk about this one a little bit.. I was listening to “We Live” by Superchick, and it talks about how no matter what problems we have in our lives, we will always love, live and never give up. And that with life “we never know when we’re coming up to the end of the road.” When I was listening to this it reminded me of the “To Write Love on Her Arms” organization. It’s an organization to help those who depressed about pretty much anything that causes their health to suffer. It says online that the organization “aims to present hope for people struggling with self injury, suicide, depression, and addiction.” So struggling with anything could be the answer as well. I guess they kind of relate, they do to me anyway.

Anyway, with all of this.. it made me think of my grandpa. For the last year or so, he’s been having kidney problems. He was going to have a transplant with one of my grandmas, but I guess it wasn’t going to work out. So he’s still waiting for one. For a long time, and probably still he’s been very depressed.. you can just see it on his face that he’s hurting.. inside obviously..and in his heart. That he feels that he doesn’t have much time left.. no he’s not suicidal or anything like that.. but he is depressed.. not your usual sadness that you feel if someone hurts your feelings. It’s the sadness eating at you until you fully know everything is better. Yes he looks somewhat happy on the outside when he’s around his family, but you can still see a hint of depression on his face.

But what I’m trying to get out of this is that.. if you know someone who is depressed a lot or has been and didn’t do anything about it.. you need to try and help them, before it’s too late. I know my grandpa story is kind of opposite because like I said.. he’s not suicidal.. but it feels as if he has no hope.. and every one needs hope. Every one needs to know everything will get better at some point, even if the road to get there isn’t easy. I suggest if you haven’t visited their website, go to http://www.twloha.com/

I understand if this entry didn’t make sense, I read it over and it doesn’t to me much.. but I really hope you get it. Because it made sense in my head, but my writing isn’t that understandable lol.

Heya guys. Sorry I haven’t made an entry in awhile.. I know, well! I do have an excuse, I’ve been so busy with school and I’ve been sick. :) It all started on Saturday night [last satruday, the 31^st] and it got worse from there. We really thought it was going to be the flu, but it was just some stupid virus. I was a wreck for days.. I have the worse cough and I’m feeling better, but the cough will. not. go. away. It’s very annoying and I can’t take it anymore. I was gone all of last week except Wednesday. So homework is piling up right now lol. It shouldn’t take very long though, I’m not as worried about it anymore.

As you can see, I put up a new layout. Eh, it’s ok I guess.. I’m running out of pictures to use.. mostly because I don’t know what pictures of WHO to use… I really need suggestions.. I do like the background, but it’s so plain.. :(

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! I love Christmas time, it’s my favorite time of the year, you get to stay inside your warm house drink hot chocolate and spend time with family. I’m really looking forward to it this year, so a question to you visitors:

1. What’s on your Christmas list this year?
2. What’s your favorite part about Christmas [or, if you prefer, the holidays]

Short entry I know. I’m boring I’m sorry =O

[FINALLY. For some reason, it took this thing forever to post this.. xD]

OMG U_U I am so sorry! I am a lazy butt and I haven’t updated in weeks.. I’m very sorry for that.. lots have been happening and I’ve been busy.

First of all, like I said in my last entry, I would post about my owl city concert. IT WAS VERY AMAZING I was in the first freaking row, and it was so amazing. If you’re one of those people who need proof for that kind of stuff, look for yourself here. I was so happy to be there. I’m not gonna talk about the bad stuff that happened, cuz it doesn’t matter. But they played… Hot Air Balloon, Cave In, The Bird and the Worm, Hello Seattle, The Saltwater Room, Dental Care, Meteor Shower, Fireflies, Vanilla Twilight, Strawberry Avalanche.. but no. Not in that order xD I think there was one more..but I can’t remember. It was a really amazing.. During one of the songs, I didn’t know what was going on..and Adam Young (singer) put his arm out and I touched it xD it was so cool :P then I got a guitar pick from one of the stage people :P

Also 2 weeks ago, I went to a Miley Concert :) That was also amazing.. however.. I’m not a huge fan of floor seats anymore… I couldn’t see ANYTHING. I had to look at the screens the whole time.. But her singing was AMAZING. She has gotten so much better in the last few years, I was very impressed with it. I was so happy after that show..considering it had gotten rescheduled.

Hmm… I knew I had more to talk about.. I just suddenly forgot :P
AH, I’m obsessed with Death Note again.. xD It’s quite hilarious actually, one night I just got bored and started looking up funny videos, and I couldn’t stop laughing at the death note ones, so I’ve been obsessing over it for awhile now. :P Oh, also. I’m also back into anime stuff :) I thought I was going to give up with it awhile back, I was getting so frustrated with it, because every time I would go to draw..it’d end up looking horrible…but the other day I was like “ok.. just sit down and learn one thing at a time.” and I started drawing eyes.. and they actually turned out really good. After that I wanted to make it a goal to try and draw a person. And I did :D She actually looks pretty lol. I named her Natsumi Mori :P

Er wow… I wanted this to be a lot longer.. oh well = I guess when I think of something else I’ll update..

So hi there! As you can see I have fanupdate back up, and a new layout as well. Yes it’s kinda plain, but I love it. So yes, I have been very busy… test after test, and assignment after assignment… it’s really hectic and I can barely handle it. But I have to live with it until winter break in 2 months, I’m hoping things after that will slow down a little…

Welll… last Friday was supposed to be my Miley Cyrus concert… in which case however, she got sick and couldn’t do the show. :( She rescheduled the show for next Tuesday.. it pretty much ruined my week, I’d been looking forward to it all week and then Thursday I find out shes not doing the show. I get she needs to get better, and I’m glad she feels better but gah. =/

However! Tomorrow I’m seeing Owl City! :D I’m soo excited. My dad got a new memory card for his camera, so I’m hoping I can get a lot of pictures and videos and post them here over the weekend. What’s your guys’ opinions about Owl City? What’s your favorite song by them? My favorite has to be Hot Air Balloon and the Bird and the Worm.. I know a lot of people here are obsessed with Fireflies.. honestly, I heard that song months ago and I was already starting to get boring after listening to it so much, and then suddenly not too long ago, it randomly pops up on the radio and everyone gets obsessed with it, acting like they’re the first ones to hear about them.. it’s like pft. Kidding lol, it was just really weird.. Apparently they have a new album coming out this fall, which is if it’s true, I’m greatly looking forward to it. I will update about the concert tomorrow. :)

Remember the book series I was reading. I’m half way done lol. I’m on the 6^th book right now and some people are making a big deal about the title… it’s like you’d get it if you read the series.. It’s called “Assassins” I don’t know why it’s called that.. and two people have already asked me why.. this kid Devan in my geometry class saw it and was like “you’re reading a book called ‘assassins’?” I’m like “yes. got a problem with that? Didn’t thinks so.” my friend Rachel just started laughing, it was pretty funny. xD

Speaking of Rachel, her birthday party was last weekend… at first…I thought it was going to be pretty stupid.. but again, that’s my jealousy talking.. she had one of our old friends there early and it made me feel kind of bad.. that she didn’t want me there early to help or something…and I was all sad that I wasn’t as important.. so I felt like that for awhile.. and then I was like “why am I acting like this? it shouldn’t matter.” I knew why she was there early, she lives like an hour away. Then it started getting pretty fun, Kelly and this kid Colby were a band there and it was so…loud. I thought I was going to go deaf.

After awhile it started going downhill.. people were acting like it was just a regular party and not Rachel’s birthday party.. Rachel, Kyle, Vicky, Sash, Jessica and I all ended up sitting out on the porch with blankets having fun together while the other people who were being rude stayed downstairs and wallowed in their stupidity. It was pretty fun that night, but never…ever again am I staying up until 3 AM and then waking up at 7 or 8 AM… I was so tired and moody the next day..

So that’s about it, I will try to update again tomorrow like I said. :)

Hola peoples. So I can’t post an avatar with this entry cuz I’m on my iPod and I dunno how to paste image links from photobucket lol. This also might be kind of short.

I put up a new layout. :) No big deal, really. It was something I was gonna use as a coded layout to put in it’s section on here. But I couldn’t find any pictures to use, and since I’d already made this… I just decided to use it. The lyrics are from “Tell Me Why” by Taylor Swift. :)

So I watched Secret life last night… and I’m excited yet sad for the finale..
so opinions from the episode..
-Amy shouldn’t get that bigger room… just because she has the baby means she gets everything thats new. Ashley and George went through a lot last season and this season, since Amy never moved out and isn’t being forced to move back in, she should stay in her own room. Also, she really needs to calm down.. its good when shes being nice but when she doesn’t get what she wants she throws a huge fit.
-Grace Really needs to ease up on her mom… obviously she would be lonely.. but to me, honestly she should really be taking it slow. Not planning to sleep with the guy right away… she should care for herself AND her family.. she should have realized it would have hurt Grace?
-Ricky really needs to calm down. Yes I understand how much John has kind traumatized him into having another child, considering hes so young with his first kid.. but, I can tell he loves Adrian, but I think he’s scared to let her know.

The next episode looks really interesting… I can’t wait to see it.. but then again I’m sad to see it end again.. I hate waiting for the next season to come around.. does anyone know after this when it comes back?

I’m also getting really tired of hearing about homecoming at school… one of my friends keeps telling me I have to go, because I didn’t go last year. There are personal reasons I don’t want to go, and I am sticking to that. We can’t afford anything right now anyway, so I wouldn’t be able to get a dress, so it doesn’t matter.

School is kind of crappy right now… I have so much work, and I’m getting overwhelmed. I thought I looked forward to being in Biology…but I really don’t like it right now. My teacher expects us to know everything we took notes on for quizzes. We had one yesterday and we had to know all 5 scientists names and what they did.. who remembers names like Spallanzi or whatever.. I know I didn’t do very well on that…

I saw the time travelers wife! :D Wow, it was really good. I got really confused at one point because… well, the dude hadn’t met the girl yet when she was younger. She was going on and on about how she knew him and he didn’t know her.. my friend Olivia told me it was better than The Notebook.. I honestly don’t thinks so… I thought the Notebook was a lot better, but this comes pretty close. I cried at the end… :( it was so sad.. I kept trying to wipe away the tears hoping no one heard me,but when I got up when it was over, I heard other people sniffling xD I was just like awww yay I wasn’t the only person.

So yeah, I don’t really have much else to update with..I thought I had more to talk about, but I guess not haha.

Yes, I’m listening to Beatles music. Excuse my little obsession by the way.. I really don’t know where it came from.. I randomly got this song stuck in my head yesterday and I’ve been listening to it ever since. My dad has like every album by them on his computer so he gave me all of them lol. I doubt I’ll listen to every one of them because there are a lot of songs… but I’ll try. I was worried they all wouldn’t fit on my computer lol.

So what’s up with me? Nothing really..the first couple days of school were good.. but now.. I just want it to be over again.. we’re already getting so much work, and I can’t take it.. I’m not used to it all right now.. I wish it would just be gradual and not just OK. Time to do a whole bunch of assignments! But eh.. that’s my Geometry teacher.. he gives an assignment everyday.. I shouldn’t be very surprised since I had him for Algebra last year.

My book! Omg.. I’m already almost done with the 3^rd book.. and I got it two weeks ago.. you have no idea how addicting it is until you start reading them..the first two books went reallllyyy slow. It took forever to get through those.. but this one is so different.. there is so much action and stuff, and it’s addicting. I’m scared half the time while reading it, but.. it’s this weird feeling I get when I read..if that makes any sense at all. I’m going to obsess over it, so if you don’t like it or don’t want spoilers, skip the blockquote

So the beginning was rather..interesting.. the end of the 2^nd book.. a character dies.. one of my favorite characters actually. He was the pastor of the church and stuff, and a great friend to the main characters.. I really miss him in the story.. but he is in a better place now. World War III has broken out and Nicolae Carpathia has obviously taken acting classes.. in private he’s so jumpy and excited but when he talks to citizens, he acts so depressed and sad..gah. Stupid Nicolae.. I think he dies in the next book lol.. I’m not for sure though, it may be the one AFTER the next book.. either way he deserves it, he’s an evil man and a murderer.. and other things I won’t spoil. But there was so much action in the beginning of this book.. so much disaster and gah..it was so devastating to hear about all of that.. I know there is worse to come, and that’s gonna be hard too.. I was talking to my dad before and he mentioned that he read the back of the book and he asked me if they were any good.. it’s the first time in years I’ve seen him take any interest in anything religious..I said yeah they’re really good.. and I told him he should read them..he said he just might.. you have no idea how happy that will make me.. if he reads them.. he’s a faster reader than I am, so he’d get really far really quick.. but I’d at least have someone here to talk about it with.. instead of just going on about it in my head or writing about it on here.. because I don’t know who’s read them and who hasn’t.. I really want to talk to someone about it.. I could talk to my grandma.. but I don’t know. I can’t wait until I get to the next book, mostly because every time I take this one to school I have to cover it up so someone doesn’t think I’m like evil or something. Because this book is about trying to face Nicolae or.. the Antichrist.. and on the cover it says “The Rise of the Antichrist” and I don’t want to freak people out with that and make them think I’m on his side or something.. but I think the next book is..Soul Harvest? I can’t remember…

Alrighty! If you skipped that you obviously didn’t want to listen to my pure book obsession. That’s alright, I’m not offended. I don’t have a lot of time to type this.. so it’s probably kind of sloppy and boring.. I keep going places, and then coming back to this lol. So I went to church on Sunday, woo. And my grandpa started talking to me about something.. he started talking about the surgery he had on his uh.. I can’t remember how to spell it..but it’s something they put in your veins or whatever to let blood go through.. and he said he wasn’t scared or anything during that.. because if there were to be a complication and he didn’t make it.. he’d be going to a better place anyway; he knew where he was going.. I told him, that’s a really good attitude to have.. and it made me think.. I wish more people would think like that.. if you’re religious anyway, I’m not sure about..uh..never mind.. but that if you’re religious and you believe in God and Christ and….and you’re afraid of death.. you should remind yourself where you’re going after.. so you’re not scared.. I did that the other day.. I have a lot of anxiety over death.. I have for the last few years.. and after my grandpa told me that, it made me think. If you know where you’re going, and it’s a happy place.. you shouldn’t worry about it. I know it’s easier said than done sometimes, but you have to keep that in your heart and realize afterward you have nothing to worry about.

I know, I’m babbling.. I always have something to say and it turns into me talking to myself. Oh well :)

Secret life stuffers: I was kind of ticked again.. first of all cuz I missed a half hour of it the first time I watched it.. then I started getting mad at Amy the second time I watched it. At the beginning she ugh.. I understand she didn’t want Ben to go out with that Heather girl.. but she should know by now that he loves her and wouldn’t do that.. and then how she disrespected her dad.. she is NOT a grown woman, just like Ashley said.. just because she has a baby and she is the mother of the baby, does not make her an adult. She’s acting more immature than mature, like Adrian said, she acts like shes knows everything, and it’s really annoying.

I felt so bad about Grace’s group thing she went to… and how everyone booed her.. I honestly think she’s going to do it again.. I know she’s Christian.. but, once she did it once, I don’t think she’s NOT going to do it again soon.. I don’t really care anymore.. after she did it once, she’s not going to change her mind if she wanted to do it again..

But I am mad at Ricky.. again. I know how traumatized he’d be to get married to someone after what happened with Amy, but.. I think he doesn’t want to get married because he wants to get to as many girls as he can.. just like what his therapist mentioned that one time.. I think him and Adrian would be a great couple.. but then again.. sometimes I just wish he and Amy would be together.. they seem so.. nice to each other now..compared to the beginning of the second season and the end of the first season.. but either way.. I wish he’d change.. I’m not looking forward to the end finale.. because then I won’t have anything to look forward to on Monday nights after a crappy day of school.. but what I think will happen..is Amy’s mom will go into labor in this upcoming episode and then in the last episode we’ll see her baby and stuff.. but I’m just guessing.

Woo.. I think I’m out of things to talk about..that’s what I get when I don’t update for almost 2 weeks. :D

I posted this on another site so it may look familiar xD

Sorry for the title, felt like being random. Today was my first day of sophomore year. It was kind of exciting.. mostly just to be back in the school and have something to do instead of sit at home and ask yourself “what am I going to do today…” My stupid tv woke me up at 6:40 am this morning.. why? Because that’s the best way to get myself up. Turn it up full blast and set the wake up alarm on it. Works every time. For once I didn’t feel tired at all.. a little achy but ok.. one tip for those who are just now going into high school (I had it last year, but I’m kind of an insecure person when it comes to the people in my school): Do not think of what people will think of you. As simple as that. Just don’t do it. You get all nervous and freaked out, and it’s better just to hope for the best and to think of good things. I started thinking of what someone would think of me this morning and I got so freaked out and almost had a panic attack. Then again I almost had like 3 panic attacks today.

Now I’m gonna tell you a little story.. my “friend”.. you should know her if you’ve read my previous entries. I don’t want to take the time to explain her.. so for the past few days, she’s been talking to me on facebook.. she added me and I accepted.. just to give her a chance.. and she kept asking me if we were walking to school.. I got to the point where I couldn’t take it anymore.. I talked to my dad and he told me maybe it’s not best that you do this.. that I’ve been hurt enough already and that it’s not a good idea.. so I wrote up this long paragraph telling her all of the things I felt, and how I thought we shouldn’t be friends anymore.. I was so scared to send it to her.. I seriously took about 15 minutes to finally send the darn message. I was scared, way beyond scared. So this morning I walked through the school doors.. I felt.. odd and alone. I felt like a new kid walking into a new school with no friends. As I was just standing there by myself, I saw a friend and she came over and talked to me..I already felt better.. then when we went to the assembly where they talk to us about rules and blah blah.. more friends came and sat by us.. already I felt even more welcome and happy.. then.. I saw “my friend” walk by me.. I wanted to scream, cry, anything to get out the emotion of how freaking scared I was. She didn’t seem mad when she walked by..but then again I didn’t see her face. I had my head down at the floor.. I didn’t want to face her at all. But I knew sometime during the day I would have to..

We spent most of the day in our classroom learning about the new laptops the school got for high schoolers.. boring, but eh.. I knew most of the stuff.. then..during a break we had to get up and walk around.. I saw “my friend” in the hallway with another friend.. I freaked out again and didn’t want to look up at her or anything..she looks straight at me right as I’m going towards her down the hallway.. she holds out her arm and hands me something and says “I wrote you a note.” Again, I freak out and then just go back to the classroom.. when the next person was done explaining stuff, I got to reading the note.. and this is what it said:

Kendra,
Thank you for the message. =] Honestly how everyone doesn’t want school to start. I honestly really don’t want it to. This summer was amazing. Not an ordinary summer for me, me trust me. This summer I went looking for myself. I went down to New Orleans to find my spirit. I went and worked at a charity to find my honesty and I worked as a candy striper at the hospital to find my niceness again. I feel like R again. Honestly I am so glad J and Je moved. They made me a monster. I know I should have just walked away but I couldn’t, they were like a drug to me. I was hooked. I spread rumors for them, I back talked and I was two faced for them, I even cheated for them. Kendra I need more friends like you in my life! I need more friends to write messages like you do, to pull me back to life. I feel a hole inside and out again. I’ll always feel like this when I have God in my heart and you in my life. So I really want a do-over with you and if you can’t accept my apologies I’m sorry for the person I became. I can understand if you don’t want a second chance with me, so I just want you to know, I’ll always love you and I will never forget you. ever. -R

I thought it was deep.. how she went to all of that to change herself.. I never thought someone like that would go to such lengths to see what they’ve done and then fix it themselves.. I showed my mom the letter and it made her cry.. I told her I still need some time, but I plan on giving her another chance. I didn’t see all of that coming when she gave me the note.. I thought she was going to yell at me or pretend to be all sad and obnoxious.. maybe this summer did a whole lot of good for her..maybe it’s good she didn’t hang out with others or bother to email me. I’d rather her be out and changing herself than being with the same people and never doing anything about it. By the way, I put J and Je, cuz..they’re twin sisters and their names both start with J lol.

So yeah, sorry I typed so much. I didn’t think I had that much to say. oh well, I’m just mad now because my book I’m reading (obsessed with) is stuck in my locker, and I can’t get it open. Idiot locker.

Hey there visitors, stalkers (I hope not) friends.. I actually have something to talk about, and it’s not even Monday yet! So yesterday afternoon I had a friend come here.. you may know her xD Maddie :P we’d met before about 2 years ago, but it was barely 5 minutes and then we had to leave..so this was nice. When she got here we didn’t do much, I kinda showed her around the house, then we hung out in my room and talked, then we went outside and talked, then she did my hair..and she helped pick out an outfit for me xD and thennn we went out to eat at this really cool restaurant. I can’t remember what it’s called right now..but it was a noodle place, and it was really good.. we took the leftovers, but my dad ate mine for lunch today.. wah. Then we drove over to….the David Archuleta and Demi Lovato concert! No..correction, Jordan Pruitt, David Archuleta and Demi Lovato concert. xD 3 different acts. It was a great show though. I’d never seen Jordan live before..truth be told, she’s better live than her studio recordings. I think I got a couple videos of her, so I’ll try to upload those to my youtube and post them here later..

David was amazing too, before he came on, they had this huge..sheet type thing..and there was a huge silhouette of him.. and at first he was just standing there.. and then he waved.. xD at first i didnt think it was really him.. I thought it was like..computerized..but my dad told me earlier it was real. I can’t remember what the order of the songs he sang..but I know for a fact he sang Touch my Hand first. He sang probably 5 songs? I was quite sad when he left the stage xD we had to wait about 20 minutes after that for Demi.. and when the lights started to go down….

She sang uhm.. La La Land first? I wasn’t expecting that haha, but she’s really good live.. I’ve never heard her sing live before.. but she sounded amazing as well. What I really like about Demi is that..she doesn’t have all of these back up dancers and stuff, she just moves around the stage on her own. Miley does that, and it’s cool..but it makes for a better solo artist when it’s just you on that stage. If that makes sense. The whole show seemed to go by really fast.. our seats were ok.. we were on the floor but we weren’t that close to the stage..

OH ok, this was so freaking cute. I was awwwing and clapping like crazy during this. Demi was going to sing This Is Me and she asked the audience if the we knew all of the words. And if a person knew all of the words would come up on stage and sing with her.. xD and she went out on the runway thing and saw this little boy and asked if he knew the words..he said yes and he went up on stage.. xD and they sang the song together.. it was so cute. He was reaching out to the audience and touching their hands. Gah, I couldn’t stop laughing and smiling.

Overall I loved the show.. I couldn’t walk after the show though.. my legs hurt so bad lol. I stood pretty much the entire time, except that 20 minutes when we were waiting for Demi. After we got home we kind of just sat around and did nothing..we were pretty tired.. after like an hour we watched a movie then we fell asleep.

Then this morning was interesting.. it’s lovely being woken up by a dog isn’t it? Our dog came in the room and walked right on Maddie’s mattress and..I’m guessing licked her lol, I was still half asleep when it happened. But my mom kind of forced him out of the room.. and then around 3 she left.

It was really fun though, like I said.. I’ll try to upload some stuff.. I don’t have that much because my dad’s camera kind of screwed up during the show.. but I’ll try..

I got the first performance of David’s..but that’s about it, I may upload the Jordan stuff I got…I suggest turning the volume down a bit xD it’s really sort of loud. I’m not sure why it didn’t take the whole performance, it was probably when the camera stopped working..

Hey guys, I’m kind of in a crappy mood again.. for a couple reasons. Do your parent’s ever treat you like a baby? That if you don’t do what they say they get mad? Even if you ARE trying to do it? In my family, there is no try there is only do. I don’t want to talk about it though..

So I start school in exactly a week.. I was excited before..but now I’m just scared silly and I don’t want to go. Why? I’m not sure… I guess it’s just the fact of feeling alone..I have no plans at the moment and, unless my friend Keslie is in my lunch, I’m going to be sitting alone.. The other night Jenna started talking to me about a friend.. she told me she misses me..it’s the friend that treats me like crap and then turns the table and makes other people feel sorry for her. She told Jenna she thinks I hate her and Jenna felt sorry for her so she told me. She says I should forgive her..Why would she think I hate her, she’s the one who hurt me! I didn’t DO anything! She was the one treating me like crap and ignoring me all the time.. So this morning I got on facebook and saw a friend request..and it was from…you guessed it, her. I don’t know what to do at the moment, so I’m not accepting or ignoring.. I’m just..staying off facebook for now, until I’m ready to add her.

The Secret Life, this episode made me so mad.. Ricky and Adrian are driving me crazy..more Adrian than Ricky.. she’s being so clingy and obsessive.. and it’s annoying. And Ricky needs to get his act together again and either STOP sleeping with Adrian or go after Amy if he wants her so bad. There is so much jealousy this season and it’s driving me crazy. I wish everyone would just break up and then they could all start over to who they think should be right for them. Ben is just… I wish he would move or something.. I’m so tired of him being so jealous of Ricky.. he has to accept that John is Amy’s and Ricky’s son, nothing will change that.
I knew Anne and .. what’s his name would break up and leave each other.. I just knew it. But from what I saw in the preview for the next episode, she’s still going to be dating again… I wish she and George would get back together.. as much as Amy hates that, I wish they would.. speaking of Amy, she complains too much, the way she barged over to Ricky’s and took John out of Adrians arms was just plain rude. Ricky is the father, and Adrian is his “girlfriend” and if she wanted to hold him, she should have been able to. Just because Amy is the mother, does not mean she gets 100% control over John, it should be equal.. But I’m done complaining too :)

As I said before, I won’t be updating until next week.. I can’t this weekend, but maybe Monday or Wednesday. I don’t have much else to say in this entry. :)